Slowing down

My life is so incredibly different than a year ago this time, for the better. I simplified it drastically and I'm loving every minute it.

Why do we so often feel that doing more and being stressed out means we're better at life? This was my life for so long until I finally figured out I was doing it all wrong. That's not how it's supposed to be. I wouldn't have listened if someone tried telling me that before, but now I get it. Thank God! I love my own version of "The Simple Life" - a normal 9-5 (sort of but close enough) in a job I love, time with friends and family, and regular exercise . The cons? Not as much money, less travel, starting over. Ok, the money stinks but I still travel some. And I love starting over. I love how uncomplicated my life has become. I've literally regressed to my mid-20's in my career and general lifestyle and can't get enough of it. No ridiculously tiring work weeks in an uber stressful and thankless job, enjoying summer in my own house, and seeing my pets every day makes anything I've sacrificed worth it.

How did it get so out of control in the first place? Thwarting my intuition, plain and simple. Not listening to that little voice inside that we all have that was trying to lead me in the right direction but I thought I knew better. Life would be so different if I had paid attention but I guess this is how it was meant to be. It all happens just like it's supposed to, even if it doesn't seem to make sense at the time. I let money drive me and was trying to avoid my true feelings and desires. Something knew better though and took over, forcing me to stop the insanity and redirect. I literally could not deny it. I see now that being uncomfortable and uncertain are both good feelings because they mean I'm getting answers to what I've asked for, by making me change my circumstances. If I had stayed stagnant, nothing would've change right? So now I try to just go with it and have learned to recognize and trust the signs, both good and bad.

Of course there's more I want. The desire for wanting never goes away. We're constantly changing because energy is constantly changing. I've learned to like it though now that I understand it. It keeps me moving ahead. It'd be nice to have everything I desire all at once and I do believe it's possible, but I'm still getting there; being brave and taking chances is the only way to make it happen though. Sounds cliche and yet it's entirely true. I've made some pretty bold moves over the course of this past year and I'm proud I had the courage to because my life has improved tremendously as a result.

I hope to inspire others to awaken to changes they need to make so their lives improve too. It's so rewarding to break free of binds that don't serve and find balance and happiness. I'll never give it up again.