Cravings

They're back, hmm what's going on. I thought I had conquered my temptations. It's all about balance right? Let's see. Satisfying career - check. Healthy relationships - could be a little better but for the most part, but check (still waiting on Mr. Right though :) Spirituality - check check! Love the Universe. Physical activity - GONG.

What's wrong with me? This was supposed to be straightened out months ago. Grr. I was going along great, and now kerplunk. Well, I suppose they can still sneak up on ya, when you least expect it. So can we really have what we want all at the same time? Is that really possible so that my food doesn't call to me when it's not really food that I want? Call me Pollyanna, but I still believe it is.

I left my job in March to pursue health counseling full time. Do I regret it? Not for a flippin second. Do I wish I was over the hump? You betchya! Being in business for yourself is rewarding yet wildly challenging, in ways I did not expect. Where's my support staff? Where's my overnight success? Hey this was supposed to be easy!!!

I was a claims adjuster in my former career and a year ago today I was just returning from Houston, Tx after working Hurricane Ike for 3 months. I left 2 days before I was scheduled to come home because I couldn't take the stress another day. It was excruciating, and although I was paid well, I had decided enough was enough and it wasn't worth it. I remember sitting in my hotel room, dreaming about a different life, and I wrote on a piece of paper, "I want a career that I love, that I can't wait to get out of bed every day to go do, and that sustains me." Right now, I'm halfway there.

These are the "growing pains" as they say. And man, do they hurt. It's all a labor of love, and yet the uncertainty is killing me. I've been here before in life, and I've always landed on my feet. I keep thingking I have so much to offer, how could anyone turn me away? I know I'm well-suited for this lifestyle - more so than many others - so no worries. But tell that to the demons in my head who like to tell me otherwise.

So it's no surprise that right now I'm not at my best. That's right, the health counselor needs counseling. Granted my cravings come in a much different form than they used to years ago. I don't garbage up on Snickers, Oreos, or Hostess Cupcakes. Nah. It's more along the lines of 70% cacao dark chocolate, natural peanut butter sweetened with brown rice syrup, or whole grain breads. But they're cravings nonetheless and they're trying to talk to me. They're sending a message that somethings needs fixin and fast. I don't ignore them, but rather I pay attention, and know immediately they're saying.

Now I just gotta listen and go do it.

Wellness With Angela